My last day with the county office planning the Full Scale Emergency Services drill was Friday. I was able to attend a "wrap-up" meeting for about 45 minutes before my Friday morning class.
I will miss them. Since July, they have become my friends.
I learned alot and they made me feel useful and needed.
As I left, the secretary (KM) I worked with met me at the door. She wrapped her arms around me with tears in her eyes and handed me a card. We couldn't speak because we didn't want to interrupt the meeting, but I whispered "If you need me, just call." She smiled and nodded and went back to her seat.
I went outside and opened the card. As the tears flowed, I read how I had influenced her life in wonderful ways. She had decided to follow her dreams because of the example I had set and the challenges I had shared with her.
And she enclosed $100 saying she wished it could be more. It was from her, personally. Not from the "office".
OK. FIRST of all - I am NOT all that! There are people in this world that have been through SO much more than I. But it blesses my heart to know that I touched someone; that I was able to do some good in this world. I've heard it said that God uses "Cracked Pots" and I will be the first to admit that I am cracked and imperfect. I hope and pray that God can use this broken vessel, this little shard of broken mirror that is my life to reflect HIS light to others.
SECONDLY, I hope I was not begging for money. I shared some of my challenges with her and how God has provided in amazing ways. But I never meant to make her think I was asking. My friend, Lizzie, has been going through the same struggles on her blog and I can totally understand. I share my struggles to show the glory, grace and provision of my Father, not to beg or get sympathy. I think KM understood that and this was simply a gift. We were talking about a stethoscope a few days ago and I know she just wanted to help me further my future. So I accepted.
The fact is that I DO need it. And I am so very grateful to her and for what I learned there.
I must confess I am glad the project is over. I am tired and sick and I need to catch up on my classes. This week I only have one day booked other than my classes.
And that feels good. I slept twelve hours last night so I think I'm on my way.