Saturday, October 13, 2007

Cracked Pots

My last day with the county office planning the Full Scale Emergency Services drill was Friday. I was able to attend a "wrap-up" meeting for about 45 minutes before my Friday morning class.

I will miss them. Since July, they have become my friends.
I learned alot and they made me feel useful and needed.

As I left, the secretary (KM) I worked with met me at the door. She wrapped her arms around me with tears in her eyes and handed me a card. We couldn't speak because we didn't want to interrupt the meeting, but I whispered "If you need me, just call." She smiled and nodded and went back to her seat.

I went outside and opened the card. As the tears flowed, I read how I had influenced her life in wonderful ways. She had decided to follow her dreams because of the example I had set and the challenges I had shared with her.
And she enclosed $100 saying she wished it could be more. It was from her, personally. Not from the "office".


OK. FIRST of all - I am NOT all that! There are people in this world that have been through SO much more than I. But it blesses my heart to know that I touched someone; that I was able to do some good in this world. I've heard it said that God uses "Cracked Pots" and I will be the first to admit that I am cracked and imperfect. I hope and pray that God can use this broken vessel, this little shard of broken mirror that is my life to reflect HIS light to others.
SECONDLY, I hope I was not begging for money. I shared some of my challenges with her and how God has provided in amazing ways. But I never meant to make her think I was asking. My friend, Lizzie, has been going through the same struggles on her blog and I can totally understand. I share my struggles to show the glory, grace and provision of my Father, not to beg or get sympathy. I think KM understood that and this was simply a gift. We were talking about a stethoscope a few days ago and I know she just wanted to help me further my future. So I accepted.

The fact is that I DO need it. And I am so very grateful to her and for what I learned there.
I must confess I am glad the project is over. I am tired and sick and I need to catch up on my classes. This week I only have one day booked other than my classes.

And that feels good. I slept twelve hours last night so I think I'm on my way.


Heather said...

God is good all the time. He is Jehovah Jireh, God Provider.

MotoMom said...

First of all thank you for blessing me with the award, especially at a time when God was doing so much with me that I have not had the time or energy to put it all into words or keep up with my friends.

I love all that God has done in not only directing your path, but overcoming all the obstacles. Remember, those who are helping you are doing it because He is calling them to, not because of anything you are doing or saying. He just likes to take care of us like that. Keep up the good work, I don't know how you do it. Must be all my prayers. :)