This week, our hostess is Christine at Fruit In Season.
I had to read this one a couple of times before I "got it", you know? A by-product of being chronically exhausted, methinks. However, the little lightbulb DID come on. I think what Mr. Lewis is trying to say, to put it simply in a language of today, is that our choices either put us WITH God (in His will) or AGAINST God. Either way, that choice will change our spirit. It will either bring us closer to Him or take us farther away from Him.
WOW, could I tell you some stories!?!?
OK, I'll pick just one. Last year about this time, I told a male friend he could come stay with the kids and I. Sent him some money for the trip over from Ohio. Yah, I know. Don't say it.
Anyway, as soon as I gave him permission, I knew in my heart it was wrong. I felt torn up, scared, unsettled. Just WRONG! But I did not have the courage to call him back and say "No, I changed my mind." I let him just come on ahead. Every one said "OH NO! What have you DONE?!?" My guts said "OH NO! What have you DONE?!?"
Long story short, everyone was right. And so were my guts. VERY bad idea. Turned into a very bad situation. I prayed for God to bail me out. He didn't...but He did give me the courage to ask that "friend" to leave after about six weeks. But it was hard to do. A poor choice that hurt my kids and hurt my family and hurt me.
Yes, it changed me inside. In many ways. I have learned that in order to protect my family, I MUST listen to what He tells me to do. In order to be happy, I MUST listen. It made me realize what a self-destructive path I was on.
By God's grace, I'll remember those lessons for the rest of my life.